A person who found the True God
I am here again. Where to start? Ok I will say from what I am before and how I changed.and what happened next.But for u it is important what he did after I changed I guess.ok I will start.
"Bless the LORD, o my soul and
All that is with in me, bless His holy name!
Bless the LORD, o my soul, and
Forget not all his benefits:
Who forgives all your iniquities,
Who heals all your diseases,
Who redeems your life from destruction,
Who crowns you with
Loving kindness and tender mercies,
Who satisfies your mouth with
Good things, so that your youth is
Renewed like the eagle's."
Psalm 103:1-5.
Hello! My name is JWALA.
I was born in Hindu family on March 17,1984. I studied my 9th and10th classes in a local school. I spent my days very leisure. I am not serious in my studies but I am the School topper. I spent much time with my friends. And I am interested in physics, phylosophy and psychology. I used to spend my time in reading these books. I was a devotee of Hindu Gods and I am a lover of Hindu relegion ,its traditions and culture.I believed all Gods are equal and had an opinion that there is one God existed in diffrent forms.What ever may be the form we see him we can get him. In my intermediate(12th class) also i was the same.One day i saw a girl of my college saying that she took baptism , she became a christian ,so she removed bindi or singar.I argued with her that she is wrong in doing so for an hour.You could now imagine how much i loved hinduism. I did not think about Christ any time deeply.I just thougt he is also a God .I liked his compassion .But i was against religious conversion. I had a delusion that some people (of christian countries) want to get advantage ( power to rule) by converting all into christians.So i hated such conversions.
After that I joined B.teh .The stream is ComputerScience and InformationTechnology.By that time my sisters and my mother also accepted Jesus as their personal saviour.They had their own reasons(testimonies) for that.But they are not very open about that.They used to say that they like Jesus and say how he answerd their prayers.We sisters love each other very much but we donot command each other for any thing.we are independent in nature.But we share our feelings well. I did not took them serious at all.I did not think that they were converted.That time i had a dream in which i saw jesus.He spoke to me.When I woke up i was not serious about the dream.I took it just as a dream.Then one day i went to a place (vijayawada) on train with my dad.My dad halted there for some work and in return to home i was alone.In the train i sat infront of a christian poster.We had a talk.I said my sisters believe in Jesus but I believe all gods are one and equal.There was a discussion on that topic.I had many doubts about God.He answered many of them up to my satisfaction.He said It was only Christ who came to save from sin ,who is holy ,who bore the sins of his people.He said that idol worship is a sin.We should not see any idol as God.He told about some miracles that Jesus did in his life.That talk made me think more about Jesus .But when i got down the train i left every thing he said there itself .Again i did not took it serious.Because i loved my religion.How can i believe in somebody so blindly and leave all that i believed from my childhood?I do not want to change so easily.And i still did not believe that jesus is only God.Three months went like that.That day was August -30 -2002. I was at home doing something.My mother was reading Bible.She called me and said that God spoke to her through Bible.I did not believe and said that it was just a coincidence that you got something you want in the page she opened in the Bible.Before me she again prayed to God and asked God to say about a specific one.To my wonder i saw the answer to it in the page she opened in Bible.Again i said i cannot belive her.She did it three times and three times she got answer for her prayer.I was shocked.I never expected that God will talk to His people.As a hindu i never got any reply from idols.I got a little doubt in my heart........"Is Jesus the Only GOD?".I took a small Gideons Bible which i had and said in my heart this way;"oh God,if you want to talk to me any thing , talk".I opened the Bible and found the page of Jhon 12:35-50. It said that you must believe in light when there is light.And the next versus also I found God spokeaking to me clearly.He said i am hardenung my heart towards him inspite of seeing his miracles and listening about him.Any way i found God.No no...God found me.I have to believe this. And a great joy came into my Heart ....i know God.. This way i came to the true path and I started my life as a Christian.
From that day I started reading bible newTestament.Starting from first page. Really I enjoyed it very much. I found God speaking to me. What ever mistakes I do that day God used to speak about them for example: one time I spoke to my mother about my brother complaining about him some thing. Next as usual after praying I opened Bible and I found the verses psalm 50: 20
"You sit and speak against your brother;you slander your own mother's son".
This is only one example. But there are many times.like when I am sad he consoles me with his words. Many times in deciscion making he helps me what is good and what not with his word.
He says to me not to fear and gives promises in times of fear.See I am not getting how to say what he does with in me.And to say some more……….. I am a good sleeper. God says to pray in early mornings but I can't, And I have very few(can count with fingers) days in my past life when I woke up at midnights. Its very hard to wake me while I am asleep. After being Christian ,(after 1-1/2 0r 2 months I guess )one night I felt some power is coming on me. My body is becoming cool and suddenly I am opening my eyes ,seeing moon from window then sleeping again. For one week or more this continued. And then one day I determined that if it happens again I should not sleep and I should ask God what to do( I found God is waking me) at that time. As usual that night I felt some power on me (my body becoming cool like I have ZanduBalm to my whole body. Pls don't laugh like that. Its true.)Then I woke up . I saw Bible near me. I closed my eyes and prayed "God what I have to do now?" and opened Bible. In that God said me to sing for him praises ,pray him and spend time with Him. I did that for 2 hours and I slept soon because I have to go to college next day.But due to some strike next day is holiday. From then if it is holiday next day or I have leisure hours next day God will wake me .If I have busy classes God used to let me sleep. And one day god spoke to me that I have to take baptism. Then I thougt about it. I am a kind girl by nature. In my 6th class once I saw a person killing a hen. From that time I stopped eating non-veg. Its how I am. If I took baptism I have to eat bread (God;s flesh)
And take wine( His blood). It seemed very hard to me. So I said to God I will not take baptism. And its up to him to take me to heaven or not. That night I got a dream. In that I went to heaven in a rocket in search for Jesus. It was in form of stairs and people in uniform there. In the last stair I saw Him. He is sitting on a chair. I tried go near him withfull anxiety but I fell on ground (its white sand). I was looking at Him and calling him. But God is not recognizing me. He is asking who am I? That time I could not speak my name in emotion and I was saying " its me God its Me…its Me"
I woke up and found myself on bed. I cried that God did not recognize me. Next day through Bible God spoke to me versus…Jhon 6:51-58. And in the church on Sunday also God spoke to me about that. So I found that Jesus wants me to take Baptism if I want to reach him close. It was in Feb-2003. Then I asked God to give me baptism to my Birthday , On March 17th(2003). But when I enquired about it in my church they said they will give Baptisms may be on may. Then I left that.But the before day of my Birthday there was an announced that Baptisms are going to be given at other church(branch of this one) the next day.(18th). And I know God did it for me. I, my mother, My sister took Baptism that day.